“I didn’t mean to give you all of those things that you had been looking for long before you met me. I didn’t mean to be unkind or to let you down and I of course didn’t think that you’d fall as hard as you did.
But I also know that I wasn’t ready to give you what you wanted, long term.
It really wasn’t you at all.
You never did anything thing wrong but I knew two months into it that it would end with me walking away, without any scars and I’m sorry that when you finally gave up and let go, you had more than a few.
You were never unkind, in fact you may have been the sweetest and most honest guy I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. But that doesn’t change the timing or the circumstance.
The truth is, I didn’t and still don’t want anything serious.
I need to pay attention to myself and as hard as that is to shallow for you, I need you to know that just because it wasn’t me, doesn’t mean that there is no hope for you.
In fact, someday you will meet a girl who will be able to give you all of the things that I never could and believe me when I say that I can’t wait until you get to love her in the way that she deserves, and I can’t wait until you get that same love in return.
I know that you blame me for a lot of what happened and with good reason. I wish I could give you some other explanation other than we are just different people but I can’t.
I’m not what you need, I can’t be that kind of girl, and as sorry as I am for hurting you, for giving you another reason not to trust, I’m not sorry that I left.
Because it was a better choice than me leading you on when my heart just wasn’t in it.
I could say get over it, but that takes time and I know better than anyone that you are the most patient person, and that with this time you will come to know all of these things, the things I never had the courage to say when I say goodbye.
I’m sorry that you still care. I really am because it sadly will not change the way that I feel.
I need someone to challenge me, to spark creativity and to make me feel six different things at once and you need someone who wants to be saved, who needs to be taken care of.
I told you from the start that’s not me. And I know that you know that I’ll be fine on my own.
I’m sorry that I let you half way in and then ran away.
I’m sorry that I couldn’t forgive myself enough to love you in the ways that we both you know you deserve.
If you’ve taught me anything it’s that life is short and in a flash, years will pass and I didn’t want to be the one that you wasted your time on.
I’m not your person and you are not mine and while I have accepted that, I’m not so sure that you have.
I will always miss you, and if we met in another time and place, maybe I could love you deeply and fully and not take shortcuts and not fall short but we met one another in this time, in this place, and I couldn’t invest and care like you could.
You are far better than me in so many ways and so I just want you to know that while I know that I broke you a little more, I also know that I won’t be the one to fix you and I never was.
I wish you all the best, all of the happiness. I know that you will find joy soon and stop being so mad at everyone, for everything they have ever done.
I don’t expect forgiveness or kindness, I just needed you to understand that I get it.
I’m sorry that it didn’t work out but in some ways, I’m happy because I know that I was just a speed bump and that sometime soon, you will meet the love of your life and it won’t feel like work. It won’t make you frustrated and it will put you at peace.
So thank you. For loving me all at once so that I could figure out how to walk away rather than forcing something that would never be right.
Thank for you showing me what it’s like to be wanted, but also for showing me what it looks like when the pieces don’t fit. And for showing me what a relationship should be, and not just what I have gotten, what I could settle for.
The Girl Whose So Sorry She Couldn’t Love You.”
This is not my work. I was surfing and just lurking around the internet when I read this. It’s my first time coming across that website and it still has a lot of interesting reads in there.
I just really, really want this on my blog.
I, for one, have experienced first hand going into a relationship that I was not ready for and reading this made me think about what I’ve done and nonetheless, I hope he can read this. This is my way of saying I’m sorry.
This is by Jonny33 (as indicated in the website) and this is the original link in Puckermob: click here. Photo Credit is from Tumblr. I hope you guys enjoyed this wonderful read as much as I did and feel free to share your thoughts down on the comments box. 🙂
All the love,